Archive for August, 2012

For those that know me, I’m not typically someone who lacks vision for the future. I almost always have some sort of idea what God is speaking for each season and my prophetic track record is pretty solid. All around, I am confident in hearing God’s voice and I have a good understanding of my specific calling in life.

In case I’m about to lose some of you, please let me clear up some things. This is not a post about how great I am and the previous statement is to help drive the point home later. If you are not confident in God’s voice or you don’t know what your calling is, that’s okay. My point is not to make myself seem better than I am. If you were offended or put off by the statements above take a second and read this: Declaration of My Own Imminent Failure… But There’s Hope!

The Blessing and Curse of Vision

Now that we’ve cleared that up, let’s proceed! The fact is we are a generation of people that are blessed with exuberant amounts of vision, prophetic words and BIG dreams. Our downfall as a generation is that we are impatient and we’ve never seen process at work. We don’t know what submission looks like, and we’re scared that submission means giving up our dreams. We’ve seen manipulation so we’re slow to trust.

Unfortunately we’re a fatherless generation both in the family unit and in the Church. One of the most common questions I get asked by others my age is, “How do I get a spiritual father or mother?” Because the Church is full of orphans looking for someone to care, those orphans are forced to rely on their dreams for direction.

QUICK EXHORTATION: If you are a mother or father in the Body, please adopt a spiritual son or daughter. We need spiritual leadership that is encouraging, guiding and not controlling.

The thing about dreams is they typically don’t come with a ‘How To Guide’ and the passion in our hearts can be easily influenced by the Enemy. How? Someone once told me that if the Enemy can’t hit the breaks on something he’ll hit the accelerator. If he can get us to hurry past process, character forming and TRUE divine appointments, he can get us to burn out and ultimately stop the glory of God we were going to spread on this planet.

As my pastor and spiritual father Jim Baker puts it, “When we gets words about ministering to the nations or being a general in this generation, we often want to run off and do it or we start looking for our army to lead. You have to learn to follow before you’ll know how to lead. You have to be a son before you can be a father.” We are a generation that carries greatness and we will shake the nations, but we have to allow the process before we run out and try to change the world. Character before calling. Passion without process will leave you burnt out wondering why your dreams never happened. Chase your dreams but honor the process to get there.

Humility Through “Humanization” 

So now I must confess that I’m the most guilty of us all. I tried to rush the process and I almost fell flat on my face. Thankfully God’s grace invaded the situation. Let me lay out the scenario for you.

My passion is for Hollywood, filmmaking and ministry. I’ve received tons of prophetic words about a new season, moving to a new city, Los Angeles and traveling preaching. Every single word hit my heart in a profound way that told me they were from God. I recently left school upon the releasing of the Holy Spirit and that left me wondering, what’s next? So I looked over my prophetic words and it would make complete sense based on the prophetic words for me to prepare to move to LA, and honestly God probably would’ve blessed it. Favor has never been an issue and I’m confident it never will be, but what I would’ve missed out on (and what would’ve been to my demise) was the opportunity to learn sonship.

Brad McKoy, another spiritual father in my life, had a very tough talk with me that helped bring things into perspective. Jesus served as a carpenter in His father’s house for almost 30 years. Throughout that time He must have seen sick people, the poor, people stoned to death, etc. His heart had to of swelled with compassion and a desire to step in to help, but He knew it wasn’t His time yet. That conversation struck my heart hard and I knew what I had to do. God told me a year ago to serve my spiritual parents and my church, yet I had let that word fall behind the was that were more exciting in my mind. We will never be short on cool options and good things to do, but it’s about figuring out what the God things are. Bill Johnson says, “Character is not formed in the absence of options.” Figure out where you are supposed to serve and stick to it until God releases you.

This picture makes me laugh because they made Jesus look like a little girl. C’mon Catholic artists! haha

Since I came to that realization in my head and my heart, I knew exactly what I needed to do. It started with repentance to my spiritual parents and then to the rest of my spiritual family. The night before being ordained at Zion (July 22nd, 2012) I was able to repent and they then gathered to pray over and bless me. It wrecked me. I am truly blown away by the grace and Love shown by those who care about me.

To bring understanding to my earlier statements, even though I’m confident in hearing God’s voice, I was wrong. I misunderstood the direction I was supposed to be going and I made a mistake or three. But that’s okay. I think the most powerful thing that came of this is the humanization of humility. We tend to put people on a pedestal in the Body and we forget they’re human. This both removed the pedestal in other’s minds and gave me the freedom to make mistakes. The day I start claiming to be perfect or to know everything is the day that you should stop listening to anything I have to say. I’m human and I’m always going to be growing.

One of my favorite books in the Bible is Timothy (yes, I’m putting 1 and 2 together). Every time I read it I feel like Paul is writing to me. Paul makes a statement to Timothy that is key regarding growing in the faith:

Cultivate these things. Immerse yourself in them. The people will all see you mature right before their eyes! Keep a firm grasp on both your character and your teaching. Don’t be diverted. Just keep at it. Both you and those who hear you will experience salvation.

1 Timothy 4:15,16

Did you catch that? “The people will all see you mature right before their eyes!” It’s okay, actually it’s necessary, to be growing as a leader. People often ask me why I am so open about my life and that is the reason. I want you to see me grow and I want you to see my mistakes. I also want you to see me learn from them. Why? I hold to the hope that you can learn from observance what I learned and will learn from trial.

So What Now?

I have surrendered myself to the process and have committed to serving Zion and FIRE for a year. I realized the recent prophetic words were for the next season and they are to help me prepare. I want to grow in relationship with my spiritual parents and learn everything I can from them. My goal is to honor them in heart, word, and deed. I canceled all ministry plans for the remainder of the year and I will take any new invitations before God and the wise counsel of my leadership.

Meanwhile, FIRE is going full force against the darkness at OSU by Loving relentlessly. We plan to see a greater family dynamic form amongst the group, more salvations, outrageous miracles, unprecedented favor and ultimately the Kingdom of God at Ohio State. Zion is now helping spiritually cover us and they have opened their resources and trainings up to us.

In Closing…

Pursue your dreams but honor the process you are called to. Don’t try to rush anything. God’s plan is greater than ours. A general doesn’t receive that place of authority right out of boot camp. Let God put you on the platform. True authority is given by God and man recognizes it. You don’t have to make the prophetic words over your life happen. Part of weighing prophetic words is praying about the timing of the words. Ask God if that’s a word for now or later. I urge you to learn from my mistakes and successes.

To everyone that has supported me (prayerfully, financially, or otherwise), thank you! Your Love and grace continues to remind me of why I do what I do. I see Jesus in you all and experience deeper levels of His Love in the way you Love me. A special thanks to Brad McKoy and the Bakers for their continued support, guidance and Love.

My hope is that this post has blessed you. If it has please pass it on to others. Also, you might want to check out this video I recorded recently: The Calm Before The Storm… 

I leave you with the words of Paul to young Timothy… Be blessed!

Let no one despise your youth, but be an example to the believers in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity. Till I come, give attention to reading, to exhortation, to doctrine. Do not neglect the gift that is in you, which was given to you by prophecy with the laying on of the hands of the eldership. Meditate on these things; give yourself entirely to them, that your progress may be evident to all. Take heed to yourself and to the doctrine. Continue in them, for in doing this you will save both yourself and those who hear you.

1 Timothy 4:12-16 NKJV

To God Be All The Glory!